Well, it cannot get closer than this to blasphemy. I just had my spring break. There are too many problems for me to face and think about, that if every other second is a break, I might make it. Only now I realize what is an up-hill task is. The going is difficult but the worst part is to not break and sit down. If I sucessfully complete this masters, it will be the most difficult and trying part of my life so far. There is this constant nag in the mind about the uncertainity of future, pressure to perform well in courses and research and take care of other responsibilities. I constantly fight between the irritation that "I can go only so far" and the need to "Keep moving". There are so many times I feel I should drop everything and go back. Not sure why I am unable to do it. To me, I have set this deadline. Just one more year- next spring.