Interesting Revelations

I was totally pissed off, irritated to the core and had lost all hope today. Everywhere I tried to get a job, I met dead end. Incidently I met meena in the lab and was talking about the state of affairs. She said she was also sailing in the same boat but she asked me a few questions. She asked if I tried for the part time jobs like how I used to try when I was searching for a job in New jersey or when I was searching for funding. In truth, I should admit with lot of guilt that I have not. All the places I have tried or sent applications to, I realized I have not even called them back. Hey this is ridiculous. Looking at the state of affairs, I think I am the one who has to be blamed. Bons was right. I had been in a state of virtual reality all these while, but all of a sudden I have been woken up from that. I think, I should thank my friends for that. So, now this is what I have decided. I am gonna do this job search, 8 hours a day like a proper job itself. I am gonna go to library in the morning by 9AM and work till 5PM on the job search. I think that should be easy enough for me to do after working for more than 10 hours a day, 7 days a week. I am gonna give myself time till, I graduate, which is may 15th. If I have done my job sincerely, I should be placed somewhere by then.  ¶ 10:45 PM