NJ - It's Crazy and making me too

I am not sure what is that I am doing. I searched for jobs for the past two days, sometimes walking several hours and travelling further more. All I managed to get is one *****job at a ******. I tried that too, but not gonna continue. In just 5 hours, my fingers got cut and started bleeding. The guy saw me working and dunno what he thought...told me he might hire me as a ***** very soon and that I am not supposed to do *******.Hmmmmmm....Well, I am tired of this place. I dont mind working, but if I dont get a job how will I work. I have forwarded my resume to KP's consultant and to one in London (my Cousing gave me the address). I will meet a person to day at 5PM. If it turns out to be nothing, then I will wait for 2 more days. By the end of 2 days from now, that is tuesday, nothing happens, I am coming back to Rolla (sometimes Bons might be right..very rarely though ..that I could have stayed for 2 more weeks). If such a scenario comes, then I will finish my thesis and once I get my OPT card; go to St. Louis and work at convergence. Further, decided for sure to do my second Masters. At the end of which if I still remain jobless, will be happy to go back to India permanently. I can only take up a certain amount of hardship (guess I cant bleed and still work....may be lived too comfortably all my life..too late to change).
  ¶ 2:36 PM